Mmmmmblah

the past week has been amazing. God has been faithfull in so many areas, both hidden and visible. The biggest thing i need right now is structure. i need not stay awake until the wee hours of the night and awake deep in the mire of my laziness.

i wrote this a few days ago...

i've set an unholy blaze,
it was fed by my hands and all my woes.
it ran across my heart searing your love.
searching for my soul it begged for sins sweet fuel.
i fanned the flame while looking in your face, needless to say it was through the soot and smoke.

ive run and i've run, far enough for this fog to blind me.
my sight is gone and my will is charred.

ignite in me a brighter, more brilliant light oh Great Redeemer
and cauterize these wounds i bear.
purify the riches you've so abundantly given.
scars i can live with, reminders of your grace, your perfection in me.

HERES ONE IM WRITING RIGHT NOW AS I POST
ive said goodbye to yesterdays, theyve gone before the cold.
leading me, or previously demanding i be bold.
a warmer spring has has spread its wings beyond the reach of hand,
specters watch and failed crops dumbfound the smarter man
I WILL FINISH YOU LATER MY FRIEND.