Its a kick in the teeth, almost there. its on the tip of my tongue, and it never goes away.

(revised)
when you see a bright light shining as bright as a bright light would shine, the brightness of that particular light may be incredibly dim. It may even be dim enough to be classified as "out" although it assuredly and confidently sends forth the most miniscule rays and is capable of casting the softest shadows. this is the case in darkness, when you know a dying ember to be brilliant and blinding, it is just that. the smallest portion becomes the largest feast before a mighty hunger.

that took a while to put into words, its still not complete but in my mind it is reconciled. today i took a challenge... so im not eating meat for a month, this is gonna be hard but it can be done. not fore pleasure or to prove anything to anyone but for me. it was a challenge and i plan to meet (no pun intended) it.

dont ask me to leave all this, if you did i would.
and when i do, i fear i'll lose my "if" my "cant" my "should." (another dumb rhyme)

thats goin nowhere fast.
I really like dave matthews lately im listenin to warehouse (live) and its perty.
i shall write more tonight but for now im gonna go beat HALO II.

hi mom shap.
adam.