Against My Better Judgement

my goodness, the adventure life demands and the way we fail it. i will not fail it.

i still expect nothing but... ive spent so much time trying to neglect every notion that sucha familiar sound now escapes me just as OJ fled the police...but they caught him didnt they?

why do i feel like ive done something wrong? if anything ive avoided and trulu defeated sin a number of times recently.

this weekend wasnt what i expected it to have been but...NO BUT!!! i got to hang out with a rad friends whom i rarely see (some less than others) and for short periods of time the web of pals was one.

Anticipation, an odd accompanyment to my already mixed emotions. they are anything but polar opposites while all finding origin in disappointment and anothers failings. Relief, reluctance, sorrow and betrayal, just a few of the myriad of discussions my mind has recently undertaken.

God help me wrap my mind around what you have for me. this almost seems like running, is it toward or away from righteousness?

aaaaahh i nearly forgot, the holes in my ears have reached 1/2inch, there they will stay. the right one hurts a bit as the stretch from 3/8ths to the full half was a big one. goodnight