your land is gone and has been given to me.

people do it, they go to school they have friends close and far. they go to movies and get ice cream afterward. they call their mom and dad every few weeks asking for a little help with the bills because they had a monetary collapse. they'll soon graduate with honor owing a brick building thousands of follars. sooner than later they will have found "the one" and will be wed during the first half of this new year that they have spent together. family will grow, fathers will play with their sons and mothers will do their daughters hair and people will die ushering in a new generation of failure.

i wrote everything on this post at work so its pretty random and incomplete.

there is a disconnect an open sea,
it widens and it grows with me.

it was brought about by my own pain
it bever stopped it always gained.

it grows still, to this very day
it slows still, requiring i pay.


my words arent necessarily aboyt my experiences, feelings or things ive done. i use the words to create a mood and story which may have touched me at some point or in some way. i draw from the humanity of which i am a part of.

I want to lead an amazing life, one worthy of writing about. i want the first 19years of my life to be chapter one. i cannot live without some fulfillment of this dream. i want my life to be one others will recall with awe and recount for many to hear. Adam went here and there, talked to he and she, did this and that and it was amazing.

and now he rests, hoping that day comes sooner than later.
a little scared of what that day may bring he rests his eyes childishly.
adam